Monday, May 11, 2009

me again

Consume my soul for a little while. Break my heart just a little more. Remove the breath from my lungs and banish the smile from my lips... I beg you.

Someday I’ll try to be strong. Not today. Today is a day to indulge you... my sin. I won’t fight you this time. I’ll give up so you can take over. Do with me as you please, and I’ll smile for you. When the whole world goes to hell, I’ll smile for you. When I choke on the dust while I’m broken on the ground. When you fill my soul with pain and my thoughts with hatred. When you push everyone out of my life and leave me with no one... I'll still smile for you.

You crave to tear my life apart... you want me to die. But I won’t die for you! Stare into my eyes if you dare... and I’ll smile for you.

8 comments:

  1. But I'm growing weary of you. Your power used to scare me, make me cover my head and hide until you came. Now, I feel your weight and hear you knocking, letting me know that you're there. I've opened the door to many times before. Greeted you so many times. You're to familiar now and I think I've said everything I can possibly say to you. Next time you knock, I won't be home.

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  2. There aren't words to say how much this speaks to me at this time in my life. Thank you.

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  3. My darling this is THE perfect post.
    I just love it how you can go into one's mind and just "be" there, start a talk... make us think.
    If you won't mind... I'll make your words "mine" at my place (you'll be quoted, of course)

    Love,

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  4. This may be my favorite post ever mister.

    Such writing with the underlying message "smile in the face of adversity".


    love it <3333 maybe I'll actually be able to write something tonight. Been keeping a lot bottled up but you inspire me.

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  5. I believe that the strength you showed in the past will reflect in your future.
    You are not alone...

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  6. That is powerful. I am so impressed by your writing. My heart can relate.

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  7. Powerful post...I can so relate in a lot of ways. How DO you do it? So many times, I feel like you are writing DIRECTLY to me. Whoah!

    PS Thank you for your kind and loving words a few days ago when I was so broken. Appreciate it.

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